My freshman prom!!

Prom!!

Eye makeup Jan 29, 2011

For this look I used the Glamore Doll pigment in Lover's Lane. I also used the sliver/black in the Wet N' Wild "Lust" pallet, as well as the black with purple glitter. Lover's Lane falls out really badly, so use it wet. It also transfers to the upper part of the lid, hence the black out...

Glamour Doll Eyes Haul!!!

Okay so I bought eight of these eye shadows, and received two extras as samples. I bought these at GlamourDollEyes.com

First off, I love ALL of the colors I received!!!! I have a couple least favorites, but I will definitely still use them.

The two Sample colors:

Cloud Coverage: Is simply a milky matte white! I love this one, the texture is amazing and the pigmentation is... just... wow!!! The most pigmented white I've ever found!!! MUST TRY!!!

Island Chic: I wasn't sure about this one. In the bag it looked like a matte teal, but really its an awesome duo-chrome!! Its green, blue, and golden yellow. Its beautiful!! This color actually reminds me of a dragon scale!!

The eight pigments I bought:

Victorian: I really thought this would be one of my favorites, but its actually one of my least favorites. I thought it would be more red, but it leans more on the purple side. Its a soft lilac color.

Royal Assassin: I love this color!! Its a deep purple, but it has this great multi colored glitter in it!!!

Lover's Lane: I love this color. Its a super pigmented red!!! Deep, blood red, with copper undertones, and a bit of rust brown. So gorgeous!!! MUST HAVE!!!

Grease Lightning: Phenomenal green/gold with a black undertone. Duo-chrome!!! This one and Island Chic surprised me by their color and how much I fell in love with them!

He Loves Me Not: This is a beautiful neutral beige/rose color. Its so pretty!

Chocoholic: I also thought I was going to love this one, but its not as rich as I was hoping. I can't really explain it... the actual color is very pigmented and beautiful, and it has a really nice red undertone to it, but its not what I thought. Maybe its too metallic for me, or at least what I think of when I think of chocolate. Maybe as I use this it will grow on me. A deep brown color with copper undertones.

Backstabber: I love this color and I honestly didn't think I'd like it this much. Its a black green color!! I'm amazed at the blending ability for the creators of these colors!!! Black can be super overpowering, but in these it gives the right
amount of depth!!!


Graves in May: First off, I love the name. Second the color is fantastic!!! Its a sheer gray with multi colored glitter and pink undertones!!! Fantastic. MUST HAVE!!!

Here are the colors: Left to right; Graves in May, Grease Lightning, Lover's Lane, Royal Assassin, and Victorian.




Again Left to right: Island Chic, Cloud Coverage, Backstabber, Chocoholic, He Loves Me Not.

Steve Jobs: How to live before you die | Video on TED.com

Steve Jobs: How to live before you die | Video on TED.com This was an awesome speech that I watched for my Public Speaking class. I definitely recommend it!!!

A little ambling notion

As I read my assigned reading, I think about how school has affected my learning and effected me. To quote Jerry Farber, "History is engrossing, Literature is so beautiful. And school is likely to turn them dull or even ugly." I find this completely true on so many levels. I, myself, often admit that though I didn't go to school very often as a child, I learned more from my studying at home than I ever did at school. I was often much more competent in my "academic skills", although my grades didn't reflect this. I didn't mind being an F student... This way I could study more enthusiastically. I would read text books... similar to the ones I'm having to choke down now. It would be a great venture to be able to study freely, without petty competitiveness, or rewards and punishments. Its taken me years to figure out that being an F student didn't make me lazy or stupid... it showed a stubborn unwillingness to submit to being a slave of the system, so to speak. Skipping school, avoiding it, was my way of teaching myself, in my own time and on my own terms. Learning, actual learning, is self discipline. And what is self discipline, but a way of making yourself happy...

Quote of the Day

"We must give voice to that which remains unspoken and is deafening in its silence."

~ Professor Yolanda T. Moses on Race, Higher Education, and American Society

Rice Aroma Pu-erh Tea

Type: Black; Pu-erh. I love Pu-erh, while black tea is my favorite, Pu-erh is my favorite black tea. I got this from Ebay, from berylleb, this was another sample they sent me with my purchase. The initial aroma of this tea is very starchy and warm. The tea comes in these compacted little disks, I was honestly afraid to try these at first since they come from a different country without the FDA... Not that I trust the FDA, but it was a very learned fear... Of course I had gotten these right after watching The Human Centipede, so my mind was a bit warped. Hahaha! Anyway, I told myself that this tea would be soaked in boiling water, so I made some and drank it anyway! When water is poured over this tea its very fragrant!!! Its so beautiful and it smells exactly like cooking rice. The color is black-red with gold undertones. This does become a loose leaf tea, so you will need a strainer. I usually drink Pu-erh as milk tea, so the liquid becomes a tan-ish pink. The flavor is very smooth and mellow. It does taste a bit like rice, but not in the way Numi's Toasted Rice Green Tea. This teas is much more subtle, which I like considering that I find the Toasted Rice to be a bit... strong, overpowering.

I definitely recommend this!!! 10 out of 10!

Review: Isla Del Sol Cigar

Cut: Guillotine. Light method: Wooden match. Wrapper: Sumatran infused with coffee. Filler: Nicaraguan. Type: Colorado Claro. Body: Mild to medium. Length: Churchill - 7in long, 20mm wide. Smoke time: 50 - 60 min for me. Draw: Easy. Initial scent: Moist soil. This cigar is one from my favorite brands: Drew Estate. If find I enjoy their infusions better than some other companies. This cigar develops nicely. Very complex, there's a flavor change about once every inch to half inch. I bought this for about $7 at my local Smoker Friendly. I didn't get any/very much coffee flavor with this cigar, but I had a whole range of others. First few draws are very tobacco-y. Lolz. Its a nice introduction to this cigar, because sometimes I find that the actual flavor of tobacco gets lost in cigars... especially infused ones. I also get apples. Very fruity! Mild, sweet, and fruity in an unexpected way. I was expecting a type of fruit, but not the one I got. Second inch in, I get cinnamon. Third inch, I get coconut chai and pear. I also get a note of amaretto.

I like this cigar because it was super surprising!!! It was like a Summer Ale, very light, but complex and fruity. 9 out of 10.

I find it very amusing, as I'm watching the video counterpart of this review, that when I was first starting out on Youtube; I was very uncomfortable talking on camera. Now I feel uncomfortable NOT talking on camera!!!

Organic Taiwan Jin Xuan Milk Dong Ding Oolong Tea

Type: Oolong. I love this tea... probably my favorite green tea so far. I got this as a sample from one of my orders from Ebay. The seller is berylleb. The tea comes in a single serving packet. First off, I think the packaging is beautiful!!! The tea is vacuum packed. The scent of this tea is incredible!! Its milky and sweet smelling. It brews very mellow in color. It a light green, but very transparent. The flavor is fresh and grassy, but not overpowering like Matcha can be. This tea is very mellow, its not at all bitter. Its very soothing to the pallet. Defiantly recommend this one. 10 out of 10!

4th Chemical Peel

This one was different.... Um I made mistake number 1 that no one doing a chemical peel should do... I mixed chemicals. Okay so in the directions it says to cleanse the skin with rubbing alcohol before treating the skin with the Lactic Acid. This improves the chemical peel by removing the oils from your skin. Well I had just gotten Mario Badescu's Cucumber Toning Lotion, which is 4% alcohol. I wasn't thinking and added that to my skin before the chemical peel. The chemicals mixed and my skin... its not burned, but at the time it was VERY uncomfortable. I left the peel on for four min, but it was when I was taking it off that the burning sensation became very intense. I moisturized immediately, and my skin isn't burned or severely peeling it just appears red. Its not sensitive or hurting, its just red. The skin feels very smooth and my pores are almost gone. Like my open pores are soooooo clean, they almost blend entirely into my skin!

I'm PISSED!!! SOS

I can't follow my math teacher, can't change classes, I've gotten a tutor, but if I can't explain what I need help with... I'm so frustrated right now...

I can't follow my math teacher because he SUCKS!!! He hasn't taught in 8 years and jumps around all over the place!!! EVERYONE in class is confused and I'm fine with the homework, even though he assigns homework that isn't even relevant to the lecture, but later in the semester I'm not going to understand a thing!!! HE WASN'T EVEN SUPPOSE TO BE THE ONE TEACHING THE CLASS!!!! I understand that situations come up where a teacher won't be able to do a class, but at least give us a heads up. The only other classes are: 2 at 9am M/W or T/TH... which I can't make because I don't have a ride... Why don't I have a ride? Because Stephen is a FUCKING LAZY ASSHOLE!!!! He refuses to get up that early so I have to be stuck with a teacher that can't teach me.... There is one other class, M/W at 6:00-8:00pm... Which means I wouldn't have time to do homework and its expensive... 4-5 dollars to and from. Weekly that would be... 21 dollars a week that I don't have... Plus it makes getting a job even harder, because I won't be available for nights... I'd need a job to be able to pay the $21 a week...

I don't think a tutor is what I need... I need a better teacher...

I need a car, I need a Job to get a car, I need a job to pay for rent, otherwise I'll be homeless come May.... I feel like I have to choose between work and school... Neither of which I can do.... I can't handle this pressure.... I need time... Which no one will give me.... I need money..... I have no solutions so if anyone does, please leave a comment....

FedEx... A rant on the postal service

IT LIES!!!! I check everyday when I have a tracking number because I don't want my liquid products outside in the snow!!!! This is the second time FedEx has lied to me. It claims that my package has been delivered, but it hasn't and ends up being delivered the next day. I don't mind if my package is late but don't lie to me!!!

Public Speaking Class

We had to play Two Truths and a Lie in class today, so one of my truths was that I had attempted to commit suicide when I was 13... and that it wasn't my first. I didn't, however, explain that it was my last attempt and that I've been in counseling for it, ect. It was breif, I more or less just wanted to go back to my seat as soon as possible.My boyfriend is making me feel super self conscious about it. At first I felt fine, because I learned a lot from that experience. But Stephen says that it was probably really shocking to people. But everyone else was pretty open about personal stuff, was I too open? I want to be more open with people, I want to make friends, and be more personable... Damn now I'm really regretting it.... I hate self-doubt!!! Whatever... what ever happens, happens.

Super Belated Birthday Shout Out!!

This is because I completely forgot that I was doing birthday shout outs.... So sorry, but its not like she reads this anyway, hahahaha!!! This is to my love, Kelsey Medina and her Hubby!! They were born like a week apart!!! Happy Birthday Kare Bear!!!

English Class...

I have a person who harassed me as a child for a classmate... I don't care though, she's just as miserable as I was, perhaps more. Since I wasn't the one who took my frustration out of others... at least not until pushed. I can see her suffering, even now, and wonder what tragic events lead her to become this way. I wonder if she recognizes me... Though I doubt it, she hasn't seen me for about six years, and has probably moved on with her bitter little life. When I say this, I don't feel contempt, only pity. It makes me feel terrible, that she will never have the laugh lines that I have. Now, more than ever, I believe that grade school is terrible for everyone.

I am worried that she might start something, but its college, so I don't think she will. I really do appreciate the experiences she, and others, gave me. Without struggling, I would be the person I am now. And I'm pretty happy with who I am. I can handle people better, I can handle anger better, I can handle criticism better than I used to, and without these experiences I would have never heard of Sophie Lancaster, I would never have wanted equality for everyone. I have felt a whole range of emotions in my lifetime; I believe this has deeply expanded my world. This has deeply enriched my human experience. In this knowledge, of my strengths and weaknesses, I feel secure.

Moving on. In class we had to do a 20 min free write on why we were there. Too short for me, but at least I mostly finished. That was all we had, since our teacher is stuck on Vale Pass. Its unfortunate, as I really wanted to get a feel for her teaching style, before its not too late to change classes.

Review: Boscia Luminizing Black Mask

I love this product!!! Its really refreshing on the face, when first applied, it feels really cooling. I use this even though I have sensitive skin, but I have no idea how this will work for other people. I don't find that this peel mask unclogs pores, but for healing acne and purifying the skin I find that it works really well. This is a peel mask, so you will have to be careful when removing it, and you are supposed to use it twice a week. I do find that this works better than a lot of the other peel masks I've used. It significantly smooths and softens my skin without being too harsh. I bought this online from Bosciaskincare.com, for $34. This comes in a 2.8 oz tube. 9 out of 10 because of the price tag!!!

Fiber so far...

Yesterday I had about 12 grams of fiber, which I know is not the best. (The Average adult woman should have 20-21 grams daily...) But it's pretty good for me considering I forced myself to eat when I wasn't hungry. I think there's something wrong with my levels of CCK or PYY, since both of these hormones control satiety. I ate two meals today which is one more than I can usually get myself to eat. Its not that I want to be skinny, my weight never seems to fluctuate depending on my diet, but I simply feel too full to eat. I've been at 114-115 lbs for the past 5 years...

Today I ate two meals, which seems to be more than enough right now... I ate something unhealthy earlier, to keep myself on tract. Today, so far, I have eaten 20 grams of fiber!!! I'm so proud of myself. I ate a medium Avocado which has 11.85 grams (approx) and two cups of blueberries(1 cup contains 4.18 grams, again approx). Otherwise I had fast food.

I really need to be looking for a job...

Otherwise, come May, I'll be homeless. Probably... I can't stay with my parents, the house is too bad for that and the ceiling is caving in over my bed. I guess I have a lot on my mind, but I really can't devote any emotion or time to thinking about that right now. I'm just not capable enough for that. I'll probably try and live with Juan, but I need a job to do so. Things are fine with my boyfriend and I, but the house in which we live, it's roof needs replacing. Seems like everyone's house needs a new roof. At least this will make me start saving money! I need a car and the ability to drive it too...

First Day of Second Semester

This is my second semester of college... And will probably be my easiest. I have four classes, my hardest day being Thursday, which I have three classes and must wait 30 min after for the bus. Basically, I'll be getting home at Ten pm, but I don't have Friday classes, so its okay. My first class starts in an hour... Its Public Speaking!!! I'm nervous, so I'm wearing red lipstick and four to five inch heels.... Apparently I'm over compensating... Is that two words or one? At least I'm not wearing the fish-tail skirt and black and white under-bust corset like I had originally planned... That will have to wait until Comparative Religions class on Thursday. Hahahahahaha!!!

I waited until the LAST MINUTE to get my books. But I'm glad everything went smoothly and quickly with that! And my books were only $200-something The cheapest yet!!! I have to start doing my scholarship stuff... I'll probably post advice on that as well, it can be really challenging! I feel pretty out of it right now, as I'm sure you can tell. I covered my face in concealer, which seems to be working well for me, it looks somewhat natural!!! I get some interesting looks, but I'm certainly NOT the weirdest looking person here!!! Hahahahaha!! Mean, but true. Right now, I'm in my favorite hiding spot... the farthest, darkest corner of the library. My stomach is burning, but at least I know where my class is!!!

I will be a better student this quarter!!! This is my mantra!

Arturo Fuente Spanish Lansdale Double Claro

Cut method: Guillotine. Filler: Dominican,Binder: Dominican, Wrapper: Connecticut Double Claro. Lighting Method: Cedar lit with a Zippo lighter. I really like this cigar!! First scent is really grassy and fresh. Like green tea. First quarter is nice and grassy, really mellow and sweet. Its a warm flavor. Second quarter tastes like Amaretto, sweet and rich, very intensely almond-y. Third Quarter is spicy, fresh flower, herbal. I love how refreshing that is! Forth quarter is a nice Autumnal flavor, like burning dry leaves and grasses. Its super deep and bold. Overall this is a nice medium bodied cigar. Firm, well rolled. Great for beginners!!! Very smooth! Being a Lonsdale, this cigar is 6 1/2 inches long and 17 mm wide. The shape is between a Parejo and a Torpedo.

Happy Year of the Rabbit!!

Completely forgot to mention that. Even though the Lunar New Year hasn't come yet, its on February 3 this year, this year is the year of the Rabbit. The Chinese New Year falls on the second moon after the winter solstice. Sometimes the Lunar New Year falls on the third moon, but Thats only in cases of a leap year.

Make Me Chic Mini Haul

I got four pairs of shoes, and the total of the purchase was STILL under $100!!! Definitely recommend this site!!! Make Me Chic

Office47 Red Lace Pumps.

Wild Rose Yvone01 Sand Velvet Platform Pumps

Breckelle's Vicky11 Black Faux Fur Cuff Lace up High Heel Boots

Bamboo Office19 Black Lace Up Oxfords

All of the picture included are from makemechic.com

Third Chemical Peel... ect

This one was for three minuets. I found that my skin was more tolerant to the lactic acid so it didn't itch/sting so bad. I went to see True Grit, which was good. The kind of Western I like. I like the kind of Westerns that are like The Quick And The Dead. I rate True Grit a 8 out of 10 for poor character development.

Manic Month for Paranoia

This is my Manic Month for Paranoia.... I'm constantly paranoid during this month, and honestly.... I can't remember the events of any January during my Life.... 17 Januaries that I can't remember... Right now I feel like my minds racing and I can't stop my thoughts. I hope this blog will help me, at least I'll have something to keep track of this month with... Right now I'm paranoid that my neighbor has been stealing my mail... or my boyfriend's mom!!! I know I sound crazy, I feel crazy!!!! My Paranoia feels like a weird feeling in my stomach and in my head. In my stomach it feels like dread, but not exactly. I'm not hallucinating yet, so that's always good! I've been trying to focus on a lot of other things... but its catching up to me quick, this feeling. Any way, school starts the 17th which is Monday, at least that will give me something to focus on.

Gatsby Hair Products.... For Women???

If you are at all familiar with Asian products, you will have heard about Gatsby Moving Rubber by Mandom. I have personally tried most of the products except for the Technical Design Clay, the hair waxes, and the Mobile versions of the original products. I really like a lot of the products in the line, in America we identify them by their colors, but the products do have names. Yellow is Nuance Motion, Bright Blue is Cool Wet, Dark Grey/Black is Technical Design Clay, Grey is the Grunge Mat, Red/Pink is Spiky Edge, Purple/Lavender is Wild Shake, Orange is Loose Shuffle, and Bright Green is Air Rise. I'm pretty sure they all have the shampoo-y apple scent. I don't know about the Tech Design though. The scent is pretty soft, but can become a bit bothersome. I just ordered the Tech Design as well as reordered some of my faves, and I will be doing a series of vids on how to use these with long hair. I have found these to retail about $10-15, but it really depends on where you can find them... check Ebay they're a bit cheaper there.

Nuance Motion(Yellow) - Very malleable... You can pretty much move this around all day. This is a typical pomade sort of product, texture wise. Its not greasy, but can be a bit waxy... The waxiness could be because I'm using too much product though. I don't mind the waxiness, because it doesn't stay in my hair and I can just wash it out... Now, my hair is waist long and pretty fine. I like to use this product is when I have my hair up and need to add volume.

Spiky Edge(Red) - This is for Short hair. This doesn't work as well for me because when it sets it hardens a bit and I've found it to be chunky... But this IS for really short hair so... yeah.

Wild Shake(Purple) - Short to medium short styles. I love this one! Its really great for volumizing and for a more wild tousled look, especially great for beach waves!!! I love this one for volume and texture.

Loose Shuffle(Orange) - Short to Medium long hair. This one worked better on my hair so I recommend it to people with long hair. Adds great movement and dimension. Also great for beach waves.

Air Rise(Green) - For Medium short to medium long hair. I like this one too, its great for really bouncy volumized hair. Adds quite a bit of control so its great for holding curls.

Cool Wet(Blue) - Short to medium long. I remember not liking the finish of this... But I've never like the constantly wet hair style... In my opinion it makes people look like a drowned puppy.... Idk I just get that... I would only use a little of this on top of my hair for shine.

Grunge Mat(Light Grey) - Extremely short to medium short. I like this one for adding texture.

Places you can get these:
Gatsby

Arigatomart

Illamasqua Satin Primer

My last package from Illamasqua arrived!!! The primer is very dewy, more so than I was expecting, but I like it. It doesn't contain any silicon and adheres to foundation very well. It applies smoothly and adds moisture to the skin. You will still need a setting powder, but it does seem to make the Rich Foundation last. I haven't tried this on my face, but I will give an update as soon as I do!

Breasts.... And a rant on myself in General...

I have gotten to a place where I knew I would be and yet... I was STILL unprepared... I am now in a DD cup size.... I knew I would be there because of my genetics.... But still.... I'm an 18 year old woman, what the hell am I doing with DD's?!!! I feel like Barbie... I'm sure people see me and think, "Oh.... look at the Bimbo, she probably doesn't know anything about anything..."

I could say worse, but I'll keep my composure.... For now. Its true though, just looking at me you would never suspect that I'm in school to become a Doctor... Though that's not set, I have backups of being a Biomedical Engineer... Because of my looks and my voice I tend to be pretentious and a know-it-all.... Which I've recently become disturbingly aware of. I honestly don't mean to be these things, and I know I'm not right all of the time, and I can happily admit when I'm wrong... but there are just times when I feel like I have to prove myself.... which everyone feels, but I think I tend to take it to the extreme... I want to be humble, but not loose my self value, or my pride. In school, I've been told by my friends that I have a really strict air about me... I'm afraid my shyness is coming off as intimidation and superiority... Which, as I'm sure I've said before, makes getting a job THAT much harder...

Another thing I've noticed, is that I'm SUPER open. Anyone can ask me just about anything and I'll answer, because I don't see the point in not answering. I mean there is the occasional question that is just too personal and then I'll give an answer like... "Sorry, I can't answer that.", "I don't know you well enough to answer that.", or my new favorite... the Japanese method, "Its very difficult for me to say."!!! But, alas, I had a point, and that is that I feel that I can really be open and expressive on my Blog, but can't on Video. On video I just seem distant and nonexistent. I'm not sure how I can be myself and still be entertaining.

I also use to many...... at the end of my sentences. Or shall I say, I use them too often? I find myself a bit annoyed when I catch myself doing this, but they have a purpose. And that is to show the flow of my thoughts, which are disturbingly scattered and most of the time incoherent... If it bothers you, sorry... there's nothing I can do.

I hate spending money, and, yet, I can't stop... It makes me feel stupid, like I can't be responsible with my money... to the point where I find myself embarrassed about spending it on stuff I actually need... like bras and a better, more school appropriate, wardrobe. I need to stop spending money on makeup and perfume... though, this I know! I have more than enough to get me into the next half decade!

Wow this was Waaaaay longer than I though it would be... sorry for the WOT!!!

Safe, Natural, Skin Whitening Foods/Supplements

Pears: Most pears contain a chemical called Arbutin which is also found in the leaves of blueberries, bear berries, cranberries, and mulberries. Arbutin is known for its melanin inhibiting properties.

Pearl Powder: Has A LOT of calcium and when used directly on the face it is a great exfoliator and skin brightener.

Vitamin E

Vitamin C: Magnesium ascorbyl phosphate, L-ascorbic acid, ascorbyl glucosamine, and ascorbic acid. These can be found in most Multi-vitamins or alone.

Citric Acid. You can find this in most citrus fruit.

Milk: Especially Goat milk is high in Lactic Acid. This can be taken internally or externally as a toner.

Sugarcane, Sugar Beets, Unripe Grapes, Cantaloupe, and Pineapple: These foods are naturally high in Glycolic Acid. They can also be taken internally or externally.

White/Red wine... see above.

Barley, Wheat, Rye: These contain a chemical called Azelaic acid, which can treat acne and inhibit melanin.

I am currently wondering...

Why I though it was a good idea to mix champagne, tequila, gin, Irish Whiskey, Orange flavored rum, and cognac... I don't have a hang over, I just feel sick. My stomach is burning super bad.... It was so bad last night that I just went to the bathroom and induced vomiting, just to get it out of my system.

Today I was going to start my Dietary Cleanse...

But because I'm still sick I've decided it would be better to wait another week. Yesterday I did my second Chemical peel, this one for 2 min. My skin is significantly smoother and softer. As for my Cleanse... I've decided to do a month long dietary cleanse, in the healthiest way.... By eating a very high fiber diet, the only part of this cleanse that I'm worried about is that I've been dealing with anemia and hypoglycemia, while the hypoglycemia should be fine since that's sugar related, I fear I won't be getting enough protein or Iron, despite that fact that I'm on a Iron supplement. If I can't do the entire month then I will probably change my plan, otherwise I think I'll be fine. The week after my high fiber cleans I will be doing a liquid fast for one week. A liquid fast isn't like what people normally think of when they think of fasting. A liquid fast is basically a liquid diet, which is much easier to digest than solid food. This is to let my body rest after such an extensive fiber cleanse. I will be posting more on this in the following weeks.

I have also sort of made a promise to Rachel, the youtuber TheRakel749, that I would be sort of doing a dieting/health series alongside hers to keep her company and give her support in her journey as well as mine.

Zhena's Gypsy Tea; Gypsy Rose

Tea: Black (Sri Lankan and Indian). The only other ingredient is Rose Petals. I love this tea as milk tea, it softens the bitterness of the rose and of the black tea. I find this tea incredibly soothing and when you open the canister its like early Autumn.... You just get this wonderful aroma of fresh rose. This tea is Certified Organic and Fair Trade, and this tea is Kosher. 10 out of 10

I've decided to enter into this blog some more personal points of my life...

By this I mean more in depth blogs about my religion and my beliefs. The reason I haven't done this before is because I don't want this blog to 1) be my Book Of Shadows, 2) Scare anyone away, and 3) End up in a useless debate. I want this to be accessible and friendly. With that said, there are some thing that I will not talk about, but I'm more than willing to answer questions. And I WILL NOT argue with anyone about religion or politics.

O' Willow Waly

We lay my love and I beneath the weeping willow.
But now alone I lie and weep beside the tree.

Singing "Oh willow waly" by the tree that weeps with me.
Singing "Oh willow waly" till my lover returns to me.

We lay my love and I beneath the weeping willow.
A broken heart have I. Oh willow I die, oh willow I die.


*'A broken heart have I' is sometimes replaced with 'But now alone I lie'.

Written by by Georges Auric and Paul Dehn.

Now Sleeps the Crimson Petal by Lord Alfred Tennyson

Now sleeps the crimson petal, now the white;
Nor waves the cypress in the palace walk;
Nor winks the gold fin in the porphyry font:
The firefly wakens: waken thou with me.

Now droops the milk-white peacock like a ghost,
And like a ghost she glimmers on to me.

Now lies the Earth all Danae to the stars,
And all thy heart lies open unto me.

Now slides the silent meteor on, and leaves
A shining furrow, as thy thoughts in me.

Now folds the lily all her sweetness up,
And slips into the bosom of the lake:
So fold thyself, my dearest, thou, and slip
Into my bosom and be lost in me.

My first package from Illamasqua Came!!!!

Hope has been renewed!

Ebay Sellers Christmas 2010

Product-seller

20 Kinds of Blooming Flower Tea - artistictea

Moonbasa Mesh Lace Underwire Balconette Shaping Bra(The rose gold charm bracelet was included in this!!) - moonbasa.usa

Virgin Mary 24in 14k gold Catholic Rosary - jewelrysupplyny

Gothic Long Victorian Fishtail black skirt - momoecp

Purederm Eye Pads Collagen - jjmarket81

Skin whitening bleaching cream - beverlyhillsskinproducts

Ruby Pink UW Bra - lindy*13

Lactic Acid skin peel - skinbeautysolutions

Black lace Gloves - wwally24

Shiseido - toquepala

Lunar Barbados Demi Whimsy Bra - lindy*13

Frederick's of Hollywood Deep U-plunge Bra - druslane

Victorian style blue choker cameo - jewelryforu8897

Black corset with skirt - qqlove2009

Mac Cosmetics and why I do not use them....

1) I feel that they are utterly unaccessible to the general public! Spiritually, physically, emotionally, economically. I've talked to A LOT of people about how they feel when shopping at a Mac counter and most of the time they feel incompetent. That's never a good way to do business.

2) Cheaply made products that are overpriced! I've hear far too many times from far too many people that MAC products make them break out, ect. I personally don't want to pay three times the average price of a half decent product.

3) Marketing scheme! The reason Mac does all of the the "Limited Edition" lines is because it is an excellent way to make more money! People don't want to miss out on things, everyone wants to feel special, and this is an age old marketing scheme that works! Problem with that is... that more often than not there will be a number of products that aren't limited edition in with the actual new colors/products. This is why you end up with five or six of the same color... Look at Urban Decay and how many of their palettes have five old colors with five new colors, while people want the new colors and buy the product for that, they also end up rebuying products that they already have and probably don't need more of. Its why I don't buy palettes unless I'm completely new to the brand... Like I will probably buy the Naked palette.

4) Horrible costumer service!

5) Color! I know a lot of women out there who LOVE the selection of colors in MAC foundation... problem is... is that most of the time, They're only shopping for one or two colors/shades. Illamasqua has so many more shades, mainly because they're a theater company, but in their pressed powders alone there are 15 varying, different shades. Mac has whole different sets of press powders with maybe two different shades for each one... At least on their website... Given, those are just one type of product, but check out both sites and see for yourself. And yes Illamasqua is an actual "High End" brand as far as price and product... whereas MAC is significantly cheaper, but Illamasqua is a Theater makeup company... they make their products to last!

6) The whole Rodarte scandal... If you don't know about this Google is your friend.

MAC Site

Illamasqua

Rodarte


Juarez

The rest is up to you...