International Shoe Sizes:

American: 7-7 1/2

Japan: 23-23.5

England: 4 1/2-5

Europe: 37 1/2-38

Korea: 241-245

Australia: 5 1/2-6

Dream... and a little insight it gave me.

I had a strange dream, but it was good. It told me something my heart needed to hear. Gave me hope. Told me, no matter what anyone says, no matter what anyone else thinks... love is real, even if its between two completely impossible things, if love is present there, its real.

Also, that you can't sum up a person. Like when people ask 'What's your type?' realistically you can't answer. You can't start with the physical aspects because then your description will be shallow and insincere. You can't start with the emotional, because that is unrealistic as well, for instance, love and passion are fueled by instinct, by chemicals, and by physical attraction. These things fuel passion, they make people seek each other out. But love is a combination of these things and emotion, so to describe a person that you love in a single sentence or even a single paragraph is impossible. You'll end up offending yourself and coming to the defense of what you love when someone states that your description is shallow, weak, ect.

People fall in love with their ideals, men with their idea of the perfect woman, women with their perfect man. These can also be homosexual, but for my current purposes I'm using the Heterosexual versions. This is what makes people seek out love, they look for people who match their ideals. Some find them some don't. I would almost call this process an innate one, because if you ask a five year old what they think about 'Prince Charming' or 'Princess Whatever', they often say yes, that's what I like, or no, I like something else. I hope that made sense, but I know it didn't. This is before puberty and sexual interest is established. You most clearly see this in childhood crushes, around the same age, and again this is before the said established interest.

Basically, I'm saying that there isn't just a sex drive, but a drive for love as well.... Now this is getting to hypothetical and scientific. Which isn't what I want... love isn't logical. Anyway, the point I was trying to make is that you can't realistically describe your perfect lover, because unless you have sufficient time to interlace your emotional desires, physical desires, and have an awareness of what chemical responses effect you, then you can't describe it,and that's even before trying to word it aloud.

I know what I want, but its not physical enough to tell you... I guess...

Abyssinian Goth Look

Lover's Lain Lip:

Rose Lip:

Red Glitter Lip:

Polo Blue By Rauph Lauren

Type: Masculine. Profile: Sporty. This also has a sort of minty scent but not a minty sensation. Its cold and sweet and that might just be because of the geranium in this fragrance. 8 out of 10

Perry Ellis Night by Perry Ellis

Type: Masculine. Profile: Sporty Mint!? I actually like this, its refreshing! Wood and Spicy like a typical men's fragrance, but it has a unique characteristic and that's this minty scent/sensation. Its strong, but not over powering exactly, but in a sort of sweet way. Its different and I like it! 8 out of 10

Tresor by Lancome

Type: Woman's. Scent Profile: Flowery Familiar. Its an okay scent. It's pleasant and familiar, but I feel as if I've smelled this one too many times. Its basically a sweet vanilla musk, but with flowers. 5 out of 10

Hibiki-an Limited Edition Competition Grade Matcha

Type: Powdered Green. Price: $45. I love this tea!! Its the finest matcha I've ever tasted! Beautiful green color, smooth texture, beautiful flavor!!! So mild and sweet. Its perfect! Worth every penny! Unfortunately I can't get anymore of this tea until next year as the competition season has ended, but WOW! or should I say SUGOI!!! Absolutely superb in every way! 10 out of 10!!!

Koicha made with this tea.

An Interesting Observation

I went to school yesterday without makeup, and you should have seen the reactions I got...!!! Lolz I have bad skin, I can be the first to say this! Mostly its the red acne scars that have been left on my face, but its really quite funny how people react to women who refuse to cover their imperfections! Yesterday I was sick, slept in, and didn't put makeup on. And women glared at me! People avoided my eyes, but would stare... It was so interesting!!! It was fascinating!!! The only person who treated me the same was one of my friends, another of my friends seemed to feel rather awkward around me. I don't mind, I just find it interesting. The more I live in this country, the more Asian I feel. And I'm only 1/4 Asian!!! I don't speak to people unless they speak to me, I wear facial masks when I'm sick and get funny looks when I do that as well.

America is strange... People claim one thing and then act another. The hypocrisy is just too much! It makes me laugh.

WTF!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a full time student, doing 13 credits and trying to get a job before I'm FUCKING HOMELESS!!!! Doing 78 math problems isn't helping me!!! I DO NOT have 10 hours to spend on math home work. Who the fuck do you think you are? You are the math teacher from hell! I hate you, and I'm starting to re-hate math because of you. I used to love math, but your turning it into a fucked up mess. I have three other classes, how many classes on average do you think we're taking? We are full time student, who happen to be in remedial math... and guess what? We have lives, and families, and work. We need time with them and to ourselves. Just because we're your first class in eight years, just because we're your only class, just because we're remedial does NOT mean that we are people with nothing to do. I spend at least 6-7 hours on homework for my class that's once a week, I spend at least 6 hours on English, and at least 3 hours on Speech. I DO NOT HAVE TIME TO DO 10 HOURS OF MATH!!! Three hours is enough for me to understand and practice the concept... Having 78 due on Thursday when they were given to us on Tuesday is fucking ridiculous!

I'm sick... Which means I missed Tuesday, got these problems Today and they're due tomorrow. I know its my responsibility to come to class, but I'm Sorry I was puking my fucking guts out!!! And now I have a head cold - will have to stay up all night - and have to stay up until 10 pm tomorrow night... I have to do English and practice for my presentation tomorrow, and do at least 2 hours in my notebook... I feel super sick, getting sicker... and I'm pissed as hell.

I would have quit your class long ago if not for the need of it. I would have quit your class long ago if not for the need to keep my scholarship, which requires me to be enrolled in a certain number of credits. I would have quit long ago and joined another class if I had the ability and resource to drive,but I don't and won't be able to learn until the summer... I won't be able to get a house until late summer.... I won't be able to get a job until summer... Which means I'll never be free... BTW it's scholarship season, they are due the 15th of March, which means I need time to do that and FAFSA.... But I don't have time... I don't have the energy, and I never do anything fun anymore....

Sunsets

Zhena's Gypsy Tea: Lemon Jasmine

Type: Green. Flavors: Lemon Myrtle and Jasmine.
I like this green tea. The scent is herbal and lemony. I only drink this tea with honey.The flavor is supremely lemony! Its a mild flavored tea, and I while I can taste the green tea it isn't overpowering. I don't get the Jasmine, but I'm thinking that its smoothing out the grassy-ness of the green tea. 8 out of 10

Ingredient List: Chinese Green Tea, Indian White Tea, Australian Lemon Myrtle, and Jasmine Essence.

*A note about Lemon Myrtle: It possess an essential oil that has antimicrobial properties; however, the undiluted oil can be toxic to humans.

This tea is USDA Certified Organic, Kosher, and is Fair trade.

Zhena's Gypsy Tea: Sense of Peace White Tea

Type: White. Flavors: Egyptian mint and Rose Petals. Right now I'm drinking a cup of this in celebration at the new-found peace in Egypt! I love the mint and rose together!! The scent when you open the canister is very minty, but the rose deepens and warms the scent. This is a very flavorful white tea! Being a black tea drinker, I tend to shy away from white teas, since they are very light in flavor. But I love mint tea and I love rose tea, and in a special way I love white tea so I figured I'd at least try this one. I love white tea for its health benefits, even if it does seem like I'm drinking sweetened, hot water...

Anyway, I love this white tea, almost as much as I love Celestial Seasonings Pear White Tea. I always drink white tea with honey, but nothing else. From first sip to last, you can taste the mint and rose fairly strongly. Its not as cooling as mint tea, which can be a good thing. Overall I'm not disappointed with this tea.
9 out of 10

This tea is USDA certified Organic, Fair Trade, and is Kosher. Ingredient list: Indian White Tea, Egyptian Mint, and red and pink Rose Petals.

Infusion d'Iris By Prada

(Woman's) (Minty Laundry Detergent) That's all I can say about this fragrance... At first smell its laundry detergent and as that wears it develops a slight minty note... like a warm Sunday morning when you awake on clean linens to your partner brushing their teeth. Its pleasant, but nothings happening to make things heat up... I was really looking forward to this scent... Because everyone knows I LOVE iris. But I don't get Iris in this fragrance. According to Fragrancenet.com the fragrance notes are; Mandarin Orange, Frankincense, Lentisk, Orange Blossom, Cedar, Iris, Vetiver, Benzoin, Galbanum.... If that's true... How do I get minty laundry detergent... 6 out of 10 for not giving me what was promised....

Acqua di Gioia By Giorgio Armani

(Woman's) (Fresh,Fruity) The first time I smelled this fragrance, I though MELON!!! Beautiful honeydew...with a bit of fresh berries! Its nice and unlike similar fragrances, its different. I feel as if I haven't smelled this scent before. While I'm not a fan of too much fruit, I think different is a great thing!!! It helps me like this fragrance! This perfume is most definitely a summer scent, I can't imagine wearing this in winter! As it develops, I get peach. Overall, its an okay fragrance, not something I'd buy, but if you like fruit I guess its okay. 7 out of 10

Crystal By Stevie Nicks

Do you always trust your first initial feeling
Special knowledge holds truth bears believing
I turned around
And the water was closing all around
Like a glove
Like the love that had finally, finally found me
Then I knew
In the crystalline knowledge of you
Drove me thru the mountains
Thru the crystal-like clear water fountain
Drove me like a magnet
To the sea
To the sea
To the sea-yeah

How the faces of love have changed turning
the pages
And I have changed oh, but you...you remain
ageless
I turned around
And the water was closing all around
Like a glove
Like the love that had finally, finally found me
Then I knew
In the crystalline knowledge of you
Drove me thru the mountains
Thru the crystal-like clear water fountain
Drove me like a magnet
To the sea
To the sea
To the sea-yeah

Quote of the Day 2/9

"That I am vain, reserved, unsociable, wanting always to keep people at a distance - that I am wrapped up in the study of ancient stories, conceited, living all the time in a poetical world of my own and scarcely realizing the existence of other people, save occasionally to make spiteful and depreciatory comments upon them - such is the opinion of me that strangers hold, that they are prepared to dislike me accordingly. But when they get to know me, they find to their extreme surprise that I am kind and gentle - in fact, quite a different person from the monster they had imagined."

~ Lady Murasaki, The Tale of Genji

Quote of the Day

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."

~ Mahatma Gandhi

Happy Imbolic!!!

This is the holiday celebrating pregnancy!! The Pregnancy of the ewes. It is also Candlemas, the Lunar New Year, and Groundhogs day. I'm super tired right now, so I won't write much, but tomorrow Friday I will have the time to do so. Have a great holiday and a good rest of the week.