Sundance Film Festival 2009

Park City, Utah

Vacation 2009

Cruise Ship. Labadee, Haiti. San Juan, Puerto Rico. Saint Martin/Sint Maarten. St.Thomas.

London 2007

Bath, England and London

Paris 2007

La Tour Eiffel
Paris, France

Review: Juliette has a Gun: Midnight Oud

(Woman's)(Plastic???!!!) This fragrance is VERY oud-y... on the front it almost smells of burnt rubber... Now I'm getting a little bit of the rose, but it still smells industrial... I get the amber, the incense, but it smells like smog, in Shanghai.... After about three minuets it starts to sweeten and smooth out a little. But then it smells like doll... like new doll out of the box. And there is also something medicinal about it.... It kind of weirds me out in a weird way... Jeeze I can't even describe it... It's kind of like that weird awkward friend.... You like it but a little goes a long way! 5 out of 10(this might change...maybe)

Review: Juliette has a Gun: Citizen Queen

(Woman's)(Amber Incense) I like this one... I'm not in love yet though... Top notes: Amber, Iris, and something like vanilla. Mid Notes: subtle leather... Bottom Notes: Labdanum. But its a very sweet labdanum. Now that's its worn, its kind of grown on me... The sweetness has mellowed to a cognac sort of sweetness... But the Iris gets powdery, which is a little disappointing, I was hoping for a drier Iris. Still, its appealing! 9 out of 10

Review: Juliette has a Gun: Lady Vengeance

(Woman's)(Sweet Incense)Top notes: at first I got a rose, but it suddenly disappeared!!! Then something smokey and soft comes billowing in... But there's also this sweetness... Like sweet apples...or berries.... and then I get the vanilla. This fragrance is soooooo much sweeter than I thought it would be... I was hoping for more musk, leather, deep rose, and smoke, less silk and cashmere... Don't get me wrong, its a great scent, but not what I was really hoping for... 7 out of 10

Review: Juliette has a Gun: Miss Charming

(Woman's)(Rose)Very simple, elegant, and sweet, but in the best way!!! Top Notes: Rose and soft musk, the musk then sweetens and blends amazingly with the rose. This fragrance is so soft and sweet. I love it and I think it would be great as a first date perfume. 10 out of 10!

Check out the Juliette Has A Gun website!!
Juliettehasagun.com

Review: Pilar & Lucy Tiptoeing Through the Chambers of the Moon

(Woman's)(Amber Incense)I Love this!!! It reminds me of all the best scents in a Head shop... No Joke! By that I don't mean dirty hippie, marijuana, or old bong water... I mean Incense!!! Top notes: Amber and Sweet Incense.(these are carried through, but it's the first thing I smelled...) Mid Notes: Coconut, cinnamon, and something that reminds me of tea... (again these scents are carried through.) Bottom Notes: are a marvelous combination of all of these things... 10 out of 10!!!

I got this Eau de Parfume from Luckyscents.com

This is what they said about it..
Smoldering amber and seductive tuberose come together in this enigmatic and soulful elixir. This is the olfactory calling card for the girl who knows her equinoxes and solstices, can point out every constellation in the night sky, and just might have a pack of tarot cards in her purse – but you won’t catch her in muddy sandals. She’s far too glamorous for that. Much like the woman who wears it, Tiptoeing Through Chambers Of The Moon keeps complex secrets, and only reveals enough to keep ‘em guessing. Mysterious, alluring and ethereal…spinning a warm and sexy web that one can’t help but get caught in.

Creed Spring Florals

I Love this Eau de Parfume, but there has been something that's been nagging me about it.... I swear this fragrance has Iris in it. But on all of the note list I've found, none of them include Iris. Maybe I'm confusing the Ambergris with Iris, but I'm sure I'm not. It would make sense if this perfume included Iris, since it is a spring flower... But why wouldn't it be included on note lists? Its very strange...

Review: Britney Spears' Curious

(Woman's)(Fresh Spring Floral)I actually Love this Eau de Parfume...I didn't think I would, but I bought a sample when it first came out and was pleasantly surprised. Its vanilla, and Camella, and Rain. At least to me. It almost reminds me of St. John White Camella, which I think is where I get the "Spring" in this scent. Top notes are very alcoholic... Which is very unpleasant, but this drys down to vanilla, magnolia, white musk, and jasmine. I don't get the pear, sandalwood, or tuberose, which are said to be in this perfume. But as this fragrance drys completely, the white musk becomes deeper.
Overall, I rate this an 9 out of 10.

I love this look...

And I'll try to do this for Halloween. This is the cover for Suga Shikao's Funkaholic. I LOVE Suga Shikao!!!

A Site that has helped me...

Witchvox.com Its great for anyone looking to connect with local Pagans!

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Celtic Proverb 15

"Conversation is the cure for every sorrow. Even contention is better than loneliness."
~ Celtic Proverb

From One Friend to Another

You are loved,
You are missed.
Your friends want you back.
We will help you.
You are beautiful!
You are our little ray of sun,
You are our beacon of hope and love.
We do care,
No matter what every one else says!
You are so important!
Sometimes a Mother,
Sometimes our little sister.
You have our respect!
We will always support you.
I know you will never forget,
But some day try to forgive.
I'm so sorry,
For everything!
We're so glad your alive.
The pain will stop one day.
Let us help.
Let us care.
We will always be here!

Celtic Proverb 14

"No pain like that of refusal. No sorrow like the loss of friends."
~ Celtic Proverb.

A Friend's Cry For Help

My life seem worthless!
Everyone hates me!
Unwanted,
I don't know what to do.
I cry ALL the time.
Do I need help?
Do I WANT help?
What is my life worth?
Am I worthy of love?
Can I love?
Can I be loved?
Hate,
Anger,
I feel so alone.
I feel deserted.
Can no one hear my SCREAMS?
I try to cry,
But I feel so worthless.
Does no one care?
Sometimes I can't stop the tears.
I fear.
I'm alone.
I love,
But am unloved.
I try,
So hard.
I always feel
Like I'm wearing a mask.
ALL the time!
If I show what I feel,
I will never be aloud to be alone again.
Now, I can't ever cry.
Will no one stop the pain?
My heart is breaking.
I'm helpless.
I'm so tired.
No one wants to deal with me!
I don't want to deal with me!
I'm so lost in this life!
I feel torn apart.
No one loves me,
No one can love me!
I hate my life!
I wish it would end.
I don't fear death!
Please,
Let it just end!
I don't care any more!!
What do you do
When no one cares about you?
What happens when I can't take any more?
Everyone dismisses my emotions.
"Oh, she's just a woman, she's suppose to be emotional!"
"Your just having a bad day."
"Don't take things so seriously! I was JUST joking!"
"Your just PMSing."
I hate you all!
Don't laugh when I cry!
Take me seriously!
Can't you see how much pain I have.
I don't JUST want attention!
I can't live any more!
I hate this!

Celtic Proverb 13

"An old broom knows the dirty corners best."
~ Celtic Proverb

To Help Another

Soul fire,
Burning bright,
Help me save this beautiful light.
For those who love,
And those who care,
Teach them not to despair.
Great Goddess
Great God
Raise the power from eternity.
Help me protect this soul tonight!

Black

Black,
So bleak and soulful,
Like a shadowed shack.
Death and mournful.

Hopeless and Hopeful.
The feeling after a fight.
Intellectual and dunce.
A silent scream, heard in the night.

The moon on the horizon
Deep and Dark.
Like the Amazon,
Quiet as a Lark.

Beautiful,
And subtle, and sweet.
Sleep's lull
And passions meet.

Calm and quiet
A stormy sky,
A riot,
And a truth filled lie.

Celtic Proverb 12

A scholars ink lasts longer than a martyrs blood.
~Celtic Proverb

Celtic Proverb 11

Have sense, patience, and self-restraint, and no mischief will come.
~ Celtic Proverb

Celtic Proverb 10

"If you do not sow in spring you will not reap in autumn."
Mura gcuirfidh tú san earrach ní bhainfidh tú san fhómhar.
~Celtic Proverb

A Prayer for Clear Sight

Mother Earth,
And Mother Night,
Help me purify my sight.
In the Darkness,
And the Light.

Celtic Proverb 9

"Your feet will bring you to where your heart is."
An áit a bhfuil do chroí is ann a thabharfas do chosa thú. ~Celtic Proverb

In Loving Truth

I am so in love with you,
I've needed you all my life.
Without you I never knew that love was true.
Always in Pain, I was in strife.

Before you, caring was agony.
You alone, could teach me to smile, to laugh.
I was blind, but you made me see.
You made me happy with what I have.

The sweetest mouth, lips, kisses.
The deepest eyes.
I feel like I am flying, every time we kiss.
Never tell me any lies.

We cry together,
You make me Sing, and fly, and smile.
You always make me purr,
Our love can last over the miles.

You will always drive me wild.

Celtic Proverb 8

"A friend's eye is a good mirror."
(Is maith an scáthán súil carad.)
~ Celtic Proverb

Coming Out to a Christian Friend

Why can't you understand the pain you've caused me?
Why can't you respect me anymore?
I'm still a human being!
I'm still your friend!
Why can't you love me anymore?
We've known each other for eight years,or more.
Why can't you understand?
Why can't you relate.
We're not that different, can't you see?
Can't you see how much you hurt me when you call me up and ask me if I want to go to church with you?
It took me eight years to trust you,
But I see I've made a mistake.
Always fighting, always yelling.
It doesn't have to be this way!
I never lied to you, never betrayed you, never told your secrets!
Your mom has always hated me, now why do you?
You have no reason to hurt me this way!
I hope someday, one day, you'll change your mind.
Respect me,
Love me as your sister again.
But until that day comes, please let me be.
In peace, in love, in charity.

Celtic Proverb 7

"True greatness knows gentleness."
~ Celtic Proverb

O'Goddess

Her healing breath,
Has welcomed us.
Her warmth,
Has opened us to the world.

The Air,
Calms my spirit, always.
The Earth,
Our Mother always forgives.

The Water,
Teaches us the duality within.
The Fire,
Her Spirit, Her welcomed light and warmth.

Love is Her Greatest gift.
Peace is the Future She wishes for us.
Understanding is what She offers.
O' Goddess, What a Great Mother you are!

You teach with kindness,
We learn to be kind.
You love us,
We have been taught to love.

O' Goddess, Thank you for all you give us.

Celtic Proverb 6

Have a heart of holly and a mouth of ivy. ~Celtic Proverb~

Dreams

When there is nothing left to say,
And nothing else to be,
Just the breathless moon filled me.
Nothing but life and timelessness.

Pain flourishes in my soul,
Breaking the ley line binding me to the Earth.
Dreamless, I soar.
As night begins to blossom.

I am soaring,
Over snow covered rooftops and villages,
Over frosted meadows and rolling hills.
Over other dreamers, dreaming their dreams of beauty.

The midnight air whispers through the clouds, I am careless.
Free as the waters of the dark sea before me.,
With a passion for life that only a fire could have.
Still as grounded as a tree.

Celtic Proverb 5

When one listens to a river, one will always catch a trout. ~Celtic Proverb

Tiger

Onyx and gold,
Aggressive and bold.
Majestic and savage,
Villages ravaged.

Ebony and ivory,
There is no need to fight me,
With these paws and claws.
For there is motherly gentleness in my jaws.

Eyes burning with warm light.
Daring and might,
Fight to live,
Just trying to survive, I have beauty to give.

*life should always be protected.

Celtic Proverb 4

"Both your friend and your enemy think that you will never die."
Síleann do chara agus do namhaid nach bhfaighidh tú bás choíche.

~ Celtic Proverb

The Seven Deadly Sins

I
Silence
Awakening in the Darkness.
The moon, blooming like a wild flower.
Pride.

II
Revenge
Blood washes away the sorrow.
"There is no forgiveness for those like us."
Lust.

III
Romance
Endearing and filled with pain.
Music haunts the lustful air.
Envy.

IV
Pain
A blind man walks the streets.
Leaving a horror in his wake.
Wrath.

V
Truth
A man watches the moonlight bathe the gravestones.
Devouring everything that matters.
Gluttony.

VI
Slumber
A woman's dying breath in bed.
Sleep eternal.
Sloth.

VII
Death
Takes everyone in the end.
Burns into our hearts, always and forever.
Greed.

Celtic Proverb 3

"The spirit sings:
Before the moon was born,
Before the sun,
Before all the worlds were born,
I was as I am now."
~ Celtic Proverb

The Silent Scream

A stormy night,
A powerless light,
A morbid thinker
Frighteningly quiet.

Lightning flashes,
The wind moans,
The house groans,
And I am alone.
(Or so I think)

Faded hope,
How shall I cope?
The unseen truth claws at my thoughts.
I cry for the souls that are lost.
Shall I go searching? - But at what cost?
(The fire crackles)

The firelight gleams,
Like a raven's eye.
Like a child's dream.
Or an undertaker's lie.
In the distance I hear a howl,
(This distracts me from my thoughts)
The spirits whisper.

I AM NOT AFRAID!

Celtic Proverb 2

"Flame up within me, Inspiration!
Bless me with the triple light of the poet:
Vision, Attention, and Truth."
~ Celtic Proverb

Death

Death,
Feasts on souls and spite,
Like a lake swollen with bright moonlight.
Ravens whisper a silent scream.
Pooling like a bloody stream.
Crawling, slithering like a horrid dream.

Eyes hide the mysteries of the soul.
Dreams leak out through a bullet hole.
Sleep flits across the mind.
Darkness and fear intertwine.
While silence lends a silken shine.

Suddenly, light filters through,
Colors appear in vivid hues.
The shining sun caresses me,
As tears flow, cascading freely.
Finally, now I can see!
Now, finally I'm allowed to be free!

Celtic Proverb 1

"Three types of courage:
The swift courage of the Horse,
The ancient courage of then Salmon,
The noble courage of the Stag."
~Celtic Proverb

Absinthe Drinker

Darkness,
Blooming in the night.
Hope fading,
Like the light.

Sweet surrender,
Dark pleasure.
Consciousness rendered,
To altered states.

A God's fury
Like a black sun.
A Knight's qurry,
Soft like the petals of a black rose.

Secrets divide,
Hushed with sorrow.
Unable to hide,
We wait for death and dawn.

Bitter sweet,
Like the summer's heat.
Soul lost,
In the winter's frost.

Introducting... Juan

Update: Halloween

I know I haven't been around much lately, on here or on Youtube, but I'm going to try and make it back really soon. As for Halloween, I haven't gotten any requests, which I expected. But its no problem 'cause now I get to do the looks I want!!! ;P I still haven't figured out how to do tutorials with mu camera the way it is.... But we'll see.

Hope to see you soon...

Joke of the day *Dirty!!!! Offensive Materal*

Lolz this isn't really mine, but here goes...

An English man was taking a holiday in France. One day he went to a clothing optional beach. And there was a beautiful blond woman swimming in the ocean. Suddenly, she started to drown. The English man went out to save her, but alas to was too late... He laid her out on the beach and ran to inform the lifeguard. When he returned he saw a French man humping the corpse. The English man ran up and said,
"Sir, Sir, do you know your fucking a corpse?"

The French man jumped up and said,
"Sacre bleu! I thought she was an American!!"

Review: Van Cleef & Arples Bois D'Iris

(Woman's)(Floral)I was recommended this from Katie Puckrik, when I asked her to recommend me an Iris and Ambergris fragrance. She recommended that I look it up on Luckyscents.com, I did and thought it sounded right up my ally! The top notes are of pine and cider, at least that's what I'm getting. Then the mellow, powdery iris kicks in, this iris is a little more flowery than I usually like, but is nonetheless appealing. The salt of the ambergris is what really makes this perfume for me, it turns it into a pleasant incense. Out of ten I give this fragrance an 8!

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Its been about a week...

I haven't posted anything in a while. I don't think I will for a while either. Schools going well, but the days are blurring into one again, so I'm taking a break. I'm tired of being tired. I'm listless, lethargic, confused. I still haven't gotten a job, which I feel down about. I'm not getting kicked out again, yet. I haven't been felling well either, my stomach hurts, I'm nauseated most of the time, I've also had a lot of mucus and soreness in my throat. Its been like this for about two weeks, I don't know whats going on. I almost had a panic attack today for no apparent reason, smoking a cigar helped. The day before I had had the worst pain I've had in weeks, I'm not on my period, nor am I ovulating, so I can't explain it. I only have one vicodine left, so I'm trying to save it. I've bought some new perfumes, they'll be here soon. I'll do a review of them when they come. Momo's doing well. I really want to take her to the vet for a check up, but can't afford to. I can't afford to go to a doctor either, so I guess we're even. I keep having boughs of aggression. All of a sudden, out of no where, I get so angry, so frustrated, I just want to beat someone!!!

School Girls/Guys

Okay so there's been this trend going around the YouTube community about mean girls and guys. Bullying in General, pretty much. I just have to address this... These girls on youtube are beautiful, capable, young women, and they're cases are a dime a dozen and aren't even that bad... Its not like they're getting picked on everyday, its not their whole school that's against them, they have good home lives, parents that care... ect And its really pissing me off that they think they have a bad life, just because of one incident...

Okay here's My Story...
All through elementary school, through middle school, up until I changed schools at the beginning of high school. I was harassed, by my whole grade and even people in other grades...Now I wasn't Just 'picked on' I was harassed. Everyday... I hated school and the people around me. I didn't really have any friends. People would throw things at me, they would push me, trip me, kick me, ect.... They would verbally harass me... Spiritually Harass me.... and no one would do anything about it. It was literally me against my whole world... I don't use THE because it wasn't THE WHOLE World.. just my world and what surrounded me on a daily bases....

For the longest time I couldn't figure out what was WRONG with me. Why people didn't like me, no matter what I did or didn't do. Even some teachers were against me, they would urge the other kids to harass me... no joke.... I didn't trust anyone. I HATED myself... I HATED everyone... For the longest time I was lost inside myself... Lost in the darkness of my mind, lost in despair and anger and hate. That's all I saw for the longest time. My self worth, back then, was all about other people. I wanted revenge.. this is what I LIVED For...

I black out. I tend to bottle things up, my emotions I mean. If I get too angry/upset; I loose it. I loose whatever control I have over myself and the primal part of my brain takes over.... I shut down... I truly believe I could kill someone in that state... and that scares me... SO MUCH. I'm terrified of myself, of loosing control. What's worse is that I don't even remember it... what happens... ect

By the end of my 8th grade year, I had more friends, I was so desperate to get out of that situation... I was so hopeless, confused, jaded, angry.... I almost couldn't function.... I was having panic attacks almost every day. At home thankfully, but still.... I almost did at school one day... and it was my fear that stopped it... By then I knew I had to get away from those kids. I had to get out of that situation... or someone was going to die. That's how it was.

So I went to Yampah Mountain High School, which was a lot better. I loved my first year there and I found a lot of people that I like and care about... And I know without Yampah I probably wouldn't have graduated from high school... But now its going to hell, and I'm glad I'm not there. I'm glad I don't have to watch the place that saved me fall apart.

Vacation

On my seventeenth birthday, my boyfriend’s family and I went on a cruise to the Caribbean. We boarded in Florida and had four destinations: San Juan, Puerto Rico; St. Tomas, U.S. Virgin Islands; Sint Maartin – Saint Martin, Dutch and French Virgin Islands; and Labadee, Haiti. The difference between Saint Martin and Sint Maartin is that France owns part of the island and the Netherlands Antilles owns the rest, though this has now changed. It was in Sint Maartin where I had my frightening encounter.
First of all, we docked on the Dutch side and from there went on our assigned tour. The one we went on was the Island tour of local artists. This tour was mainly on the French side, so we didn’t get much interaction with the Dutch side until later in the day. The French side is renowned for ‘clothing optional’ beaches, shopping, and food, while the Dutch side is known for casinos, jewelry, and strong drinks made from rum or guava berry liquor. I remember the French side being formal in behavior, whereas most of what I remember about the Dutch side is sex. The first thing we saw when we got off the tour bus on the Dutch side was an adult toy store. These began to show up everywhere, even less than a half of a mile from a school.
In addition to the astonishing amount of adult shops, there were also a lot of people hitting on tourists, myself included. I was alone at this point, because my boyfriend had gone to the beach, and his family had gone shopping. So I was exploring the city and looking for free jewelry, which was everywhere since Sint Maartin is known partially for jewelry. Stores actually hand out free sample fliers just to get tourists in their stores. I have trouble acknowledging compliments, and it really scares me to be hit on, even if I know the person it bothers me. So here I was seventeen, in a foreign place, and completely alone, but it was when I was coming back to the cruise ship that I really started to become scared. I was just walking down the streets along with all of the other tourists when I was approached by a strange man standing in an alley. At first I thought that he was stopping me because I had dropped something, which I had, so I picked up what I had dropped, thanked him, and continued walking.
It was then that he stopped me again and started hitting on me, which I respectfully declined. It was then that he asked me my age, to which I replied,
“I’m only seventeen, sorry.”
“Hey! It’s no problem; you’re on the Dutch side!” was his reply.
He held me in conversation for another twenty minutes before I was finally able to make it clear to him that I wasn’t interested and I wasn’t going to sleep with him. Now I don’t know if this man was a prostitute or if he was just looking for someone to “keep him company”. I wasn’t even wearing revealing clothing, like the other tourists, because I didn’t want to get sunburned. In fact, the only skin I was showing was my face and my hands. So I don’t really know why I was being stopped so frequently, but after I got away from the strange man, people kept stopping me, both men and women telling me that I was sexy and I was really getting scared. It was only when I met up with my boyfriend that I even remotely began to feel safer.

When I was seven...

I've always had a problems with my ears, ever since I came to this country. I don't really know what it is, maybe the climate. None of my doctors could really figure it out either. I've had so many ear infections... its ridiculous. I lost count at about 50... this was when I was late in my 7th year.... This is pretty much how the first half of my life was... I don't remember a time when I didn't have a ear infection. Its gone away since then, and I haven't had an ear infection in about five years.

Anyway, so it was in the early winter of my seventh year. I was riding in the old pickup my father had; heading to the doctor. Margie was at my right; Milt to my left. I remember it was just as we were leaving New Castle, heading to Glenwood. All of a sudden, I heard a very loud pop. Like someone had popped a balloon inside my head! I don't remember any pain, which leads me to believe that there wasn't any. So I started to fidget with the cotton balls in my ears, and when I removed the one in my right ear, puss just started leaking out of my head. When we arrived at the doctor's, we discovered that my eardrum had ruptured from the infection.

Now my eardrum has repaired, just as any bone does, but I'll always remember that point in time...

Lip color rules/tips

Lip liner should be blotted once, lip stick twice, and lip gloss should never be blotted.

Ojon Hair Care: Review

I actually really like these products... More than I thought I would. I went online, read some reviews, and finally made up my mind to buy it. I went to ebay for this purchase, payed about half I would otherwise, and got my package in about a week.

Here's what I bought:
Thickening Shampoo 8.44 oz (22.00)
Thickening Conditioner 8.44 oz (24.00)
Restorative Hair Treatment 3.1 oz (originally 21.00)

For all three of these products, I paid about 25.00, so that's a much better price. If you want to try this line, be sure to go to ebay!!! But always do your homework when shopping there, and go for the top ranking sellers.

The Shampoo:
Sort of a creamed corn yellow. I love the scent, its like wildflowers... Cleanses well. The only problem I had was that the bottle always cuts my fingers/hand. Be careful with that, its really sharp!! I didn't notice any thickening, but I didn't get this product for that. 10 Stars

The Conditioner:
Bright Green. Thick consistency, almost too thick, I had to add water to be able to get it out of the bottle!! Love the scent, again smells like wildflowers or chamomile... I like the conditioning, really closes my hair follicle, and makes my hair exceptionally shiny. I didn't notice any thickening, but I didn't get this product for that. And again, be careful with the cap of the bottle... its very sharp! 10 Stars

Hair Treatment:
Basically a solid oil. Very thick, came with the comb/scoop. Smells like coffee, but in a very earthy, hippy way, which I like. I use this maybe once a week. Can leave the bathtub oily, be careful. DO NOT use this as a leave-in, it will make your hair oily and unmanageable, or at least it did for mine. I don't notice much of a difference with this product. 6 Stars

Skin whitening... myths

If you use a skin whitener, this doesn't mean you want to be white, nor will skin whitening products work this way... sorry they just don't.

What skin whiteners are for and what they do...
Skin whiteners/bleachers/brighteners... these are all variations on the same thing.

Skin Bleaching: is high intensive bleaching.... these products actually contain bleach, and/or other harmful chemicals, which I don't recommend.

Skin Whiteners: Whiten/ brighten skin discolorations, such as; freckles, scars, moles, acne scars, hyper pigmentation, ect. These can contain: vitamin c, kojic acid, vitamin e, exfoliates, sunscreen, ect. These are mostly natural, and I use them often.

Skin brighteners: These can be as simple as exfoliation, which brightens the skin for a healthy look and feel. They can also contain vitamins and sunscreens.

Normal skin whitening ingredients:

Hydroquinone:
This is considered safe by dermatologists. It is a primary inhibitor of melanin production... basically, it inhibits the skin from producing a tan or freckles. It has been know to irritate some skin, be careful.

Uva ursi:
AKA Bearberry. Contains arbutin, which can have a similar effect as hydroquinone.
Similar to Uva ursi... mulberry extract, white mulberry, and paper mulberry.

Others:
Licorice, Vitamin C, azelaic acid, pomegranate, vitamin E.

Alpha Hydroxy Acid:
Lactic acid and glyconic acid.

Kojic acid:
product of making Japanese sake.

Ingredients you have to look out for:
Mercury
Bleach

Dockera photography

I'm amazed. These are really cool, but pretty much for 18 years or older only.... Click here

Sorry

That was only part of my past... the part I've come closer to accepting... I have a lot of problems.... I understand this. I'm socially awkward, I'm insensitive, I make people feel bad, I have really cynical humor. My humor is a coping mechanism, an anodyne.... So is my anger. I push people away for a reason. For many reasons. I'm tired of pain, I'm tired of getting the one's I love hurt, I'm tired of hurting people.... I'm tired of loosing control....

I'm sorry to the people I've hurt, I'm sorry I lie, I'm sorry... I don't expect forgiveness, I just need to forgive myself....

Hikikomori

I'm starting to wonder about myself...again. I really believe if it weren't for school, I wouldn't come out of my house.... I pretty much live on my computer; on the internet. I think it started happening when I was seven. I hated school, I hated people, so I would often fake being sick for long periods of time. Just so I could be away from everything that hurt me. Then my 'illnesses' started to become real. I felt so much anxiety that I couldn't function... it was around this time that I started to have panic attacks. I was abused as a child, physically and emotionally. I was also endlessly harassed by other school children. Why? I really don't know, everything I did was wrong... the way I dressed, the way my mother had my hair cut, the way I would just keep quiet and never speak in class. I barely cared for anyone, never really had a crush until I was 12. I barely cared for myself, or what happened to me. I guess it was all those years of being called 'worthless'... or a 'stupid bitch'.... When I was around 9 I finally stood up to my mother.... now we would get into fist fights.... literal fist fights. I was young, weak, scared... but at nine years old, I finally really took a stand. My father, who is deeply clinically depressed, was pretty much non existant... though he is the one I was closest to. Though I would never call myself a 'daddy's girl', I wasn't close to anyone else.

I know hikikomori's never leave their rooms/houses, but I wouldn't if I didn't have obligations...

Halloween

Though I haven't gotten any requests for Halloween makeup looks/tutorials, I have a few of my own! I will be doing so really wearable looks during this time as well, but they will be based off of history/historical events. I will also start doing movie review blog posts as well.

Wish me luck!!!

Movie Reviews: Sick Nurses *Spolier*

Year Produced: 2007
Genre: Horror
Thai Horror
83 min in length

Cast:
Chol Wachananont as Tahwaan
Wichan Jarujinda as Dr. Tar
Chidjan Rujiphun as Nook
Kanya Rattanapetch as Ae
Dollaros Dachapratumwan as Jo
Ocha Wang as Yim
Ampairat Techapoowapat as Orn
Ampaiwan Techapoowapat as Am


In a run-down, suburban Bangkok hospital, young Dr. Tar and seven nurses have been running a scheme to sell dead bodies on the black market. But one nurse, Tawan, has found out that her boyfriend, Dr. Tar, has been having an affair with her sister, Nook, is tired of the body-selling scam, and is ready to call the police.

However, before Tawan can take action, the doctor and six resident nurses at the hospital, force Tawan onto an operating table, kill her and then wrap her in a black, plastic garbage bag. They then dump her in the trunk of the doctor’s car, where her corpse will be kept on dry ice until it can be sold.

All the woman have their own obsessions and weaknesses, which are preyed upon in the days that follow, when Tawan's ghost returns to kill each one of her former co-workers. -taken from Wikipedia.

My thoughts:
I like this move, very campy. Would I call it scary or sexy, no, but its still a good movie. There's an interesting twist at the end, and the ghost costume is very well done.

My Rating:
7 out of 10