Thursday, May 30, 2013

Wow!

Wow! I haven't been on in forever! Hi everyone! Here's and update. I'm currently single! I graduated from the Vet Tech program with a 3.4 gpa! I'm currently working at an animal shelter! I take the VTNE on the 17th of July!!! Wish me luck! I have moved to a new place! And everything is going well! I'll post more about my adventures in VT and at the Wildlife Center of Virginia, where I spent 6 weeks for externship, later! I also turned 21!

Saturday, July 7, 2012

So What HAVE I Been Doing...

To take up all of my time this year? You all know I've been studying Vet Tech for the past year, so let me tell you what that entails. Aside from being President of the Vet Tech Club...

Vet Techs can do everything but four things that only Veterinarians can do:
1) We cannot do surgeries.
2) We cannot prescribe medication. We can fill prescriptions, but not prescribe anything.
3) We cannot give Prognosis or Diagnosis to our clients about our patients... which includes reassuring that their animal is going to be alright...
4) We cannot instigate treatment without the doctor giving us permission to do so.

I've come to realize that somehow I always wind up in the lion's den....
Literally...

My first week, we did a Cattle lab in Animal Handling and Restraint. I'm somewhat afraid of cattle, but thought I could manage. We were gathering up the cattle and fencing them off so that we could drive them into the chute. I was just trying to follow the herd of students when suddenly I find myself in the corral with four other student and the two teachers. Here I was, tiny little me, staring at our seven head of very large, fat cattle, who looked just as scared as I felt. We drove our four into the chute... with very little help from me... ^_^' and proceeded with our lab.

The second time I was caught in the lion's den, was during Wildlife Management. Again, I was just trying to absorb as much as possible while following the group. We were doing the Bear lab, and trying to anesthetist our year old cub. Keep in mind that this 'little' bear cub was at least 230 lbs and when it stood on its hind legs it was at least my hight, about 5'5". So we were in the cage and the Vet says that only one of us can be in there. So I turn to leave and find the door closing behind me with all of my Vet Tech comrades waiting outside of the cage.

So our cub finally goes down after about 30 min and A LOT of tranquilizer and the Vet and DOW guys start dragging him towards the tub, so that we can work on getting his tags in and implanting a microchip under his skin, and he wakes up! Of course he starts charging my way, and I ran out of the way and let him run back into his Faux Den. About 20 min later he's finally out cold and we got to go forward with our procedures. 

This year I also saved the lives of six kittens and successfully drew blood out of the jugular on a goat... On the first try even!


Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Isolaz Treatments

Last week I had my first treatment with Isolaz Deep Pore Lazr Therapy. Its a therapy for acne, hyper-pigmentation, and broken capillaries. Basically, Isolaz is a vacuum which draws all of the congestion, impurities, and bacteria to the surface of your skin, instead of in your pores, and sucks it away. The vacuum is then followed by a painless broadband light which kills all of the bacteria. Depending on how sensitive your skin is is what level of treatment you can receive, except in this case its better to have pale, sensitive skin because you can have stronger treatments. I started at level four, as it was my first time, but I can go up to 10.

During the procedure, which lasts maybe 15 min, you feel the vacuum latch onto your skin and then the lazer is just warm. There isn't any pain involved! There also isn't any down time and you can apply makeup or moisturizer right after its done! The only downside is that it smells because the lazer is singeing the hair on your face. For the first 24 hours after my treatment, my face broke out from all of the toxins being pulled to the surface, but then everything gradually started to heal. I'm going back this following Tuesday to get another treatment.

Check it out: http://www.isolaz.com/consumer/what-is-isolaz

Monday, July 2, 2012

Jaded: The trials of being Bi

Being Bisexual is one of the hardest things in the world. Even if we are a part of the LGBT community, we're still taboo. Still outcasts. I feel mocked by all of the stupid, insecure girls who try to be by just to get guys... Or get fed up with men and decide to pretend to be lesbian. People like that don't know what its like or how hard it is to truly be bi. Bisexuals don't fit in on either side, we're not gay and we're not straight. Lesbians think I'm weird for liking men. But I was born this way... I can't help that I'm attracted to men. Many lesbians won't date a bi girl. It hurts... that we are rejected, in part, because there are so many straight girls pretending to be bi... No one wants to get hurt, so many lesbians assume all bi girls are really just straight girls playing games.This is what I'm left to assume of course. I've had girls who I've really like reject me because they were lesbian and I was bi. It feels like someone rejecting you based on the color of your skin... or your nationality. Love should transcend all boundaries. Race, Nationality, Gender, Sex, Identity, Class, Religion, etc, etc.

Love is as devastating a power as a hurricane, as any force of nature, and yet is as necessary to life as the rains that fall from the heavens.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Love and Tears: Surrender By Kilian

This Eau de Parfume is sweet and a bit peachy in the beginning, but quickly mellows into jasmine.

According to the By Kilian site the notes are:
Mediterranean Notes: Italian Bergamot, Paraguayan Petitgrain, French Lavendin Orpur, and Galbanum.

Jasmine Notes: Indian Jasmine, Egyptian Jasmine Orpur, Jasmine Headspace, Solar Jasmine, and Winter Jasmine.

Floral Notes: Comorian Ylang-ylang Orpur, Daffodil, Orange Blossom, and Lily of the Valley.

Sensual Notes: Oakmoss, Cedar, and Styrax.

I smell the daffodil and Lily of the Valley, which I initially confused for iris. I smell the jasmines and the orange blossom. I'm getting a bit more of the Lavendin which smooths things out.

This fragrance is sweet, but mellow and a bit clean. It reminds me of White Camella, as far as being sweet and innocent. I like it, but its a bit chilling to me. The 50ml bottle costs 175 euro, which is about $220 US.

I give this fragrance a 7 out of 10.

Monday, May 21, 2012

Hate......



Recently I had a conversion on Youtube with a young Japanese man. His video was entitled, I Am an Anti-Korea Japanese. Basically his video was about the influence Korea has on Japanese entertainment and how he feels upset about how Japanese culture is changing because of it. I understood his underlying message of how proud he is of his country and how he wants to keep his culture from being changed. But the way he was going about it was wrong to me and to many others as well. I left a comment saying how I understood his pride of his country and his culture, but that I didn't understand why he had to place blame on others for it. I tried to explain how such an aggressive statement was counter productive.

He was very accepting of my opinion and gracious of how I understood, in fact, he even posted a new video on how he was no longer Anti-Korea.

I understand that it's very much human nature to fear change and to protest and blame other cultures for this, but by doing so you only make yourself appear to be a bigot or a racist. Its hurtful to stereotype and place blame on innocent people. For instance, when I was in intermediate school I was confronted in class by several students who began questioning me about my religion. They were going on and on and being very aggressive with their questioning and wouldn't let me speak, also it was during class and I was trying to get my work done. I stood up and yelled, "Shut the F*** up and leave me alone!" I grew up in a very Christian area and I was the only non-Christian around and felt a lot of hate from the community for it. So their unrelenting questioning felt like an attack, but I misinterpreted their intent.

Looking back, I feel a lot of regret for reacting in that way. I realize now that by reacting in that way I had proven everything negative that the Christians had said about me. Now that I've matured, I wish I could go back and change my reaction. Instead I would be excited at their curiosity and I would be able to teach them about paganism and teach them kindness and acceptance. I learned that you can never counter hate with hate, violence with violence, anger with anger. It solves nothing and makes the world more filled with hate.

So from this experience I wanted to teach this Young man. Japanese have a notoriety for being Bigots, but he had a chance to change that. Instead of saying he was Anti-Korea, he could of said that he didn't want to see his culture be changed. That he was proud of his country and his people and that when Koreans call Japanese bigots, how much it hurt him. But because he used the term Anti-Korea... well when a Korean sees or hears that statement from a Japanese person its incredibly hurtful for them, and then that Korean will have the notion that Japanese are bigots... Its a never ending cycle. I empathize with both sides because I know how they both feel, but how do I change this?!! How can I stop this cycle of suffering?!!!

It also made me think of Feminists. None of us would be here is men didn't exist. Yes men have hurt women, but women have hurt men too. How many times have any of us seen a man get kicked in the balls? How many times have we laughed at this person's pain?! Or a man getting slapped by his girlfriend? Both of these examples are forms of assault and if a man where to do these things he would be sent to jail, and yet society permits and media encourages these acts of hate and violence towards men. But if a man were to defend himself by hitting a woman it becomes a hate crime.

Rape is a horrendous crime, one of violence and power. But why do men feel so powerless? Many times it is their upbringing, but it can also be because women are hateful towards them?

If women are smarter than men, then why can't we see that not all men are the same? Why can't we treat men better so that all people are treated better? Treat everyone with respect and kindness, this is the only way to change the world. So many women say that all men are assholes and aren't worth dating. And there are many men who say the all women are stupid sluts who can't be trusted. Here's what I see... Suffering on BOTH sides. Women feel wronged by men, men feel wronged by women, but neither side can see that the other is hurting. Society tries to tell men that they are robots. They shouldn't feel pain or sorrow, they shouldn't cry... because its weak. This is taking power away from men, the power to feel human.... Its sad that we've made men feel afraid to cry, to show affection, to be sensitive. Shouldn't women know better?! We have suffered in the past, we have been pushed and hated simply for our gender, and here we are doing the exact same thing to men....

Stereotyping hurts people. Even though it's human nature. But sometimes we have to change our nature so that we can grow as people....

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Story about June 6th 2006

At that time I lived in New Castle. I had 7 pet chickens, all of which had been hand raised and hand fed their entire lives. Let's just say they were VERY friendly chickens. On the night of the 6th, someone came to my house in the middle of the night and killed them. No, not killed them... tortured them and ripped their heads off. So when we woke up we found our oldest chicken with her head completely detached and turned inside out. She was laid out on our porch right outside our door, her head just a few inches away.  Ebony was the sweetest chicken and she had always seemed so wise to me. She had old eyes and it was as if we had known each other in another life.  Next we found Rusty, my only Road Island Red, in the shed, her feathers were everywhere and I at least found peace that she had fought for her life before dying behind a bale of straw. We found Sunny, one of the twin White Leghorns, beneath the lilac tree. Blackie died a few hours later from shock. PeDee's body was never found. As for Whitey, the other Leghorn, and Angel, they survives their injuries, but had lost their minds in the process, either that or they had extensive brain damage, but they lived a few more years before dying of pneumonia.

So here's my question... How sick do you have to be to hurt something so helpless and innocent as a chicken. Seriously? How can someone hurt another person's pets... yeah okay maybe they didn't know that these were pets, but still they trespassed on privet property just to kill some little girl's chickens. I am well aware that my family isn't well liked, that I'm not very well liked, but don't take it out on animals. I don't care if it was about religion either... What those people did was wrong and I hope someday you get what you have given.