So What HAVE I Been Doing...

To take up all of my time this year? You all know I've been studying Vet Tech for the past year, so let me tell you what that entails. Aside from being President of the Vet Tech Club...

Vet Techs can do everything but four things that only Veterinarians can do:
1) We cannot do surgeries.
2) We cannot prescribe medication. We can fill prescriptions, but not prescribe anything.
3) We cannot give Prognosis or Diagnosis to our clients about our patients... which includes reassuring that their animal is going to be alright...
4) We cannot instigate treatment without the doctor giving us permission to do so.

I've come to realize that somehow I always wind up in the lion's den....
Literally...

My first week, we did a Cattle lab in Animal Handling and Restraint. I'm somewhat afraid of cattle, but thought I could manage. We were gathering up the cattle and fencing them off so that we could drive them into the chute. I was just trying to follow the herd of students when suddenly I find myself in the corral with four other student and the two teachers. Here I was, tiny little me, staring at our seven head of very large, fat cattle, who looked just as scared as I felt. We drove our four into the chute... with very little help from me... ^_^' and proceeded with our lab.

The second time I was caught in the lion's den, was during Wildlife Management. Again, I was just trying to absorb as much as possible while following the group. We were doing the Bear lab, and trying to anesthetist our year old cub. Keep in mind that this 'little' bear cub was at least 230 lbs and when it stood on its hind legs it was at least my hight, about 5'5". So we were in the cage and the Vet says that only one of us can be in there. So I turn to leave and find the door closing behind me with all of my Vet Tech comrades waiting outside of the cage.

So our cub finally goes down after about 30 min and A LOT of tranquilizer and the Vet and DOW guys start dragging him towards the tub, so that we can work on getting his tags in and implanting a microchip under his skin, and he wakes up! Of course he starts charging my way, and I ran out of the way and let him run back into his Faux Den. About 20 min later he's finally out cold and we got to go forward with our procedures. 

This year I also saved the lives of six kittens and successfully drew blood out of the jugular on a goat... On the first try even!

I feel busy... but really I'm not!!!... Yet

Okay so I just finished my first semester of Vet Tech which was 16 credits! I nearly failed math, which would have cost me an entire year!!! But I didn't so I'm pleased. I'm still on track to graduate at the end of the next school year. The upcoming semester will be soooooo much harder! I'll be taking 22 credits!!! The average full time student only takes 12..... So I'm scared, but I think everything will be fine. Just don't expect to hear from me until summer!

I hope everyone had a lovely holiday and I wish you all the best in the upcoming year. I'm not officially busy until the 16th, but just in case you don't hear from me!

An Interesting Observation

I went to school yesterday without makeup, and you should have seen the reactions I got...!!! Lolz I have bad skin, I can be the first to say this! Mostly its the red acne scars that have been left on my face, but its really quite funny how people react to women who refuse to cover their imperfections! Yesterday I was sick, slept in, and didn't put makeup on. And women glared at me! People avoided my eyes, but would stare... It was so interesting!!! It was fascinating!!! The only person who treated me the same was one of my friends, another of my friends seemed to feel rather awkward around me. I don't mind, I just find it interesting. The more I live in this country, the more Asian I feel. And I'm only 1/4 Asian!!! I don't speak to people unless they speak to me, I wear facial masks when I'm sick and get funny looks when I do that as well.

America is strange... People claim one thing and then act another. The hypocrisy is just too much! It makes me laugh.

WTF!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a full time student, doing 13 credits and trying to get a job before I'm FUCKING HOMELESS!!!! Doing 78 math problems isn't helping me!!! I DO NOT have 10 hours to spend on math home work. Who the fuck do you think you are? You are the math teacher from hell! I hate you, and I'm starting to re-hate math because of you. I used to love math, but your turning it into a fucked up mess. I have three other classes, how many classes on average do you think we're taking? We are full time student, who happen to be in remedial math... and guess what? We have lives, and families, and work. We need time with them and to ourselves. Just because we're your first class in eight years, just because we're your only class, just because we're remedial does NOT mean that we are people with nothing to do. I spend at least 6-7 hours on homework for my class that's once a week, I spend at least 6 hours on English, and at least 3 hours on Speech. I DO NOT HAVE TIME TO DO 10 HOURS OF MATH!!! Three hours is enough for me to understand and practice the concept... Having 78 due on Thursday when they were given to us on Tuesday is fucking ridiculous!

I'm sick... Which means I missed Tuesday, got these problems Today and they're due tomorrow. I know its my responsibility to come to class, but I'm Sorry I was puking my fucking guts out!!! And now I have a head cold - will have to stay up all night - and have to stay up until 10 pm tomorrow night... I have to do English and practice for my presentation tomorrow, and do at least 2 hours in my notebook... I feel super sick, getting sicker... and I'm pissed as hell.

I would have quit your class long ago if not for the need of it. I would have quit your class long ago if not for the need to keep my scholarship, which requires me to be enrolled in a certain number of credits. I would have quit long ago and joined another class if I had the ability and resource to drive,but I don't and won't be able to learn until the summer... I won't be able to get a house until late summer.... I won't be able to get a job until summer... Which means I'll never be free... BTW it's scholarship season, they are due the 15th of March, which means I need time to do that and FAFSA.... But I don't have time... I don't have the energy, and I never do anything fun anymore....

I'm PISSED!!! SOS

I can't follow my math teacher, can't change classes, I've gotten a tutor, but if I can't explain what I need help with... I'm so frustrated right now...

I can't follow my math teacher because he SUCKS!!! He hasn't taught in 8 years and jumps around all over the place!!! EVERYONE in class is confused and I'm fine with the homework, even though he assigns homework that isn't even relevant to the lecture, but later in the semester I'm not going to understand a thing!!! HE WASN'T EVEN SUPPOSE TO BE THE ONE TEACHING THE CLASS!!!! I understand that situations come up where a teacher won't be able to do a class, but at least give us a heads up. The only other classes are: 2 at 9am M/W or T/TH... which I can't make because I don't have a ride... Why don't I have a ride? Because Stephen is a FUCKING LAZY ASSHOLE!!!! He refuses to get up that early so I have to be stuck with a teacher that can't teach me.... There is one other class, M/W at 6:00-8:00pm... Which means I wouldn't have time to do homework and its expensive... 4-5 dollars to and from. Weekly that would be... 21 dollars a week that I don't have... Plus it makes getting a job even harder, because I won't be available for nights... I'd need a job to be able to pay the $21 a week...

I don't think a tutor is what I need... I need a better teacher...

I need a car, I need a Job to get a car, I need a job to pay for rent, otherwise I'll be homeless come May.... I feel like I have to choose between work and school... Neither of which I can do.... I can't handle this pressure.... I need time... Which no one will give me.... I need money..... I have no solutions so if anyone does, please leave a comment....

Public Speaking Class

We had to play Two Truths and a Lie in class today, so one of my truths was that I had attempted to commit suicide when I was 13... and that it wasn't my first. I didn't, however, explain that it was my last attempt and that I've been in counseling for it, ect. It was breif, I more or less just wanted to go back to my seat as soon as possible.My boyfriend is making me feel super self conscious about it. At first I felt fine, because I learned a lot from that experience. But Stephen says that it was probably really shocking to people. But everyone else was pretty open about personal stuff, was I too open? I want to be more open with people, I want to make friends, and be more personable... Damn now I'm really regretting it.... I hate self-doubt!!! Whatever... what ever happens, happens.

First Day of Second Semester

This is my second semester of college... And will probably be my easiest. I have four classes, my hardest day being Thursday, which I have three classes and must wait 30 min after for the bus. Basically, I'll be getting home at Ten pm, but I don't have Friday classes, so its okay. My first class starts in an hour... Its Public Speaking!!! I'm nervous, so I'm wearing red lipstick and four to five inch heels.... Apparently I'm over compensating... Is that two words or one? At least I'm not wearing the fish-tail skirt and black and white under-bust corset like I had originally planned... That will have to wait until Comparative Religions class on Thursday. Hahahahahaha!!!

I waited until the LAST MINUTE to get my books. But I'm glad everything went smoothly and quickly with that! And my books were only $200-something The cheapest yet!!! I have to start doing my scholarship stuff... I'll probably post advice on that as well, it can be really challenging! I feel pretty out of it right now, as I'm sure you can tell. I covered my face in concealer, which seems to be working well for me, it looks somewhat natural!!! I get some interesting looks, but I'm certainly NOT the weirdest looking person here!!! Hahahahaha!! Mean, but true. Right now, I'm in my favorite hiding spot... the farthest, darkest corner of the library. My stomach is burning, but at least I know where my class is!!!

I will be a better student this quarter!!! This is my mantra!

Manic Month for Paranoia

This is my Manic Month for Paranoia.... I'm constantly paranoid during this month, and honestly.... I can't remember the events of any January during my Life.... 17 Januaries that I can't remember... Right now I feel like my minds racing and I can't stop my thoughts. I hope this blog will help me, at least I'll have something to keep track of this month with... Right now I'm paranoid that my neighbor has been stealing my mail... or my boyfriend's mom!!! I know I sound crazy, I feel crazy!!!! My Paranoia feels like a weird feeling in my stomach and in my head. In my stomach it feels like dread, but not exactly. I'm not hallucinating yet, so that's always good! I've been trying to focus on a lot of other things... but its catching up to me quick, this feeling. Any way, school starts the 17th which is Monday, at least that will give me something to focus on.

Aikido

I've been studying Aikido for about two semesters, and I really love it. Its very challenging and makes me really work on my posture and my balance. The class is at the local college, where I regularly attend. Its a one credit coarse, which means its about 49 dollars per quarter. I don't know if I'll do it next quarter... it will be winter and I'll have to ride the bus at 9 o'clock at night. We'll see though.

First day of Classes...

Microbio went really well; I have homework. Its weird, last night and this morning I was really scared, but as soon as I sat down in the classroom, all my fears went away! I was glad.

General Psych... I was nervous, but the class went well. The teacher has a dress code... which sucks cause it limits my wardrobe.... No cleavage, no ass... not in those words, but you get the picture.
So the teacher asked who would be on Fear Factor for like 50,000. Most people raised their hand. Then she asked who would only do the eating part for some amount of money. About ten people, including myself, raised their hand. Then she asked us to keep our hands raised, and pulled out a bag containing two crickets and two worms. One of each were covered in white chocolate, and the other two were covered in dark chocolate. Cutting to the chase, most of the people who said that they would eat something "abnormal" for an amount of money, put their hands down once the real thing was in front of them. She then asked if there was anyone who would eat one of these for a dollar... I raised my hand... and won!!! Yay... I picked the cricket covered in dark chocolate. It was okay... it tasted like a Nestle Crunch Bar; I'm not a big fan, but I'm glad I tried it... It was my first insect. I've had arachnids, and I've had reptiles, but never an insect....

Watch out Andrew Zimmern.... I'm after your job!!!

School...

Next week is my first official week of college... I'm not excited, but I'm not nervous either. Last year, my senior year, I was doing college courses, so I'm already kind of used to it. This semester I will be taking 16 credits. I was doing two classes this summer; I passed both! Yay! I'm so glad. I'm trying to get a job... hoping everything goes well... Hoping to move in with a friend; the rent is 400... its a good place and I can get almost everywhere pretty easily, so I really hope I get this job! My classes and books I don't have to pay for, thanks to financial aid... I would truly be lost without it!!!!

My interest in Japan

Here's why I'm interested in Japan(so you know the reason why and don't think I'm a creeper!)

1. (Most important reason) My grandfather was Japanese, so I want to discover my roots.
2. I want to go to College there.
3. I love the language; it just sounds beautiful to me.
   

Yeah, those are my three top reasons for wanting to A) Learn about Japan and Japanese Culture and B) Someday go to Japan.